Stirring the pot...

I am going to expose allot of my self here today (again). I am, for some reason, compelled to "start some shit". I suppose it won't be as much as surprise to everyone as I think it will be. I have no idea how I will come off or how wacked out you will think I really am. (I wonder-If you know you are nuts then does that mean you are not considered to be medically "crazy"? I mean knowing you are a bit off keeps you from being delusional about yourself but can someone be crazy and know it? I am anti-social and cannot get along with my peers... it doesn't help that i realize it either.)

Yesterday I did something I knew I shouldn't... I went into a place where I somehow knew without actually even seeing IT -I would find something I would be offended by and dislike. I went anyway... that is the nature of my beast. But wait... let's get some history first...One of my "friends" here in blog world got tiffed at me a while back about a "Bush" email I sent her...well, I doubt that was actually her only problem with me but it is where she decided she couldn't hack me anymore and stopped all appearances of being nice. I guess this is absolute proof that I am pretty darn hard to take when just knowing me through a blog is so nerve wracking... anyhoo, despite my email apologising for the "Bush" email that so offended her and my subsequent efforts to drop by and post comments on her blog (something she begs people to do on a regular basis) she remains indifferent. Okay. I am a big girl and I will get over it. I do not need acceptance of my apology. I see that you are not in the mood for forgiveness or tolerance and I accept it. I still visited her blog occasionally and even said howdy once in a while. Hey, I still care. While her every post is not amazing and she is somewhat in love with herself at times:-), she was someone I have known through blogland for years now and had some background on, she often had handy tips and was downright creative... I liked her take on things and her ability to laugh at life. I was still friendly enough to sift through the put-me-to-sleep posts to get to a funny little thing she might say- come on we all have our off days... UNTIL YESTERDAY. Here in blog world it is sorta a kindness to others that if you have a link to their blog on your blog they do the nice thing and add you to theirs... well, that is how it has always worked as far as I knew and a kindness I bestowed to my readers... She has apparently taken quite a few of her "friends" off her list and has this to say about it:

If you aren’t listed here it is likely because you either don’t have your site on a feed, you are set to invite only and I am too lazy to log in to Blogger and check your site, or I once read your stuff but find it not that thrilling anymore. Yep… I said it. I have a short attention span and get bored easily. Don’t judge me. It is a good possibility that I still check in on you from time to time. If that is the case, lucky you. Please don’t email me and tell me that you should be on the list. I only have so much time in the day and I hate writing out links. If you want me to read your stuff hook it up to a feed reader and be interesting.

GOSH. That was harsh. Well, okay then. This reminds me distinctly of the movie "Mean Girls". She begs relentlessly for comments and votes on her sidewalk art yet this is the kindness she sends out into the world... Why do people flock to people like this? This is exactly why I do not have friends. Allrighty old girl. You have a huge following over there and more comments than I will ever get but I will be damned if I will hang out with you with this tackiness. My continued friendship was out of loyalty and familiar ism, some things I liked some things I didn't but you had enough of my respect that I would never have been so rude to you. Friend, you have officially been cut for going over-the-top with the high and mighty act. Even if I am a friendless, opinionated, bitch, I do have some decency to the people who read my ridiculous blather and would never be so rude. I have said many times that disagreeing with me is something that I expect and can get past with people. My political and religious opinions are out there and so, up for debate- and I deserve what I get...Blatant rudeness and undo disrespect for others creativity is not. Even as awkward and socially defunct as I am- this is a step I would not have made... and yet I am the one with no friends? I don't get it. ~Oh well.

As is my norm, I cannot keep my mouth shut and I air all the dirty laundry. I really do need to learn to keep my mouth shut. I realize that. Calling you out here is unnecessary and probably rates as one of my "up there" fruitcake antics. Yep, I know it- hopefully that makes me a bit less crazy. Sitting back and thinking what I think should be enough but that just wouldn't be me.

(By the way good readers- I DID NOT EMAIL AND BEG HER FOR A LINK HOOK UP. I AM NOT A GROVELER- I HAVE TOO MUCH PRIDE TO GROVEL FOR FRIENDSHIP. THIS IS NOT OUT OF SPITE FOR A PERSONAL DIS. IF IT WERE I WOULD HAVE SAID IT LONG AGO... THE EMAIL INCIDENT WAS MONTHS AGO. THIS IS FOR WHATEVER POOR SOULS DID EMAIL HER ABOUT THEIR MISSING LINK UP AND GOT THAT BITCH SLAP IN RETURN.) In all truth I will probably be ostracized for speaking out against the queen bee. That is par for me.

Here again, I am dumbfounded by the acts of a churchgoing person. What would Jesus do? What would Jesus say? "Your blog sucks... don't bother me anymore. So what if you like me and read my blog, so what if you comment and stay true... your blog still sucks and I can't be bothered to link to it!" Then my thoughts go to the fact that I am shocked by the old adage "To have a friend- be a friend"... BULLSHIT! To have a friends treat people like crap, put yourself on a pedestal, and talk to people like they are dogs! Obviously, it works for her! "All of you lack my talent and panache- come over, read my blog, worship me, and do not email me for favors you dopes... I am busy!"

Later I will wonder why in the hell I felt compelled to do this. I will wonder why I always have to say it out loud. I will think- Sheesh, you gotta SHUT UP! BUT, I will be glad I had the guts to say something and know I was true to me. Nice, be damned!