Luck....

Luck.

Believe or don't...? Personally, I believe we make our own luck. Now recently I have been creating some uh, shall we say- issues with my own luck. Day before yesterday I was in a "fender-bender" that I have to admit I caused. Yep, that wasn't "lucky" but then I also had the misfortune to have an old insurance card in my purse and the girl decided we need a police report even though I am fully admitting guilt and we even have a witness. :-( Now I have 1. fender bender 2. no proof of current insurance to tally the bad luck stats, but wait! Then let's add nasty attitude police officer with HUGE chip on his shoulder... Now I have 2 tickets, an unhappy feeling towards the coppers, and a fender bender.

I tried to mend fences by going ahead and calling my insurance with girl and officer listening to the entire thing and I even got the claim filed immediately ( Mr. Police officer spoke to them to confirm I DID have insurance... no help.) Um, well, he didn't have my car towed and impounded like he kept informing me he had the right to do.

I have to say I do realize I have fault in this- but sheesh, I didn't rob a bank. I made a stupid driving boo-boo and an old expired insurance card... I was trying so hard to rectify my error. Thank God I wasn't an actual criminal or he might have beaten me on the spot. I truly just wanted to do everything I could to rectify my wrongs and prove I am a decent, law biding, citizen- unfortunately, I was talked to so condescendingly through out the whole thing that I finally just had to say something. Not something horrible but just something to point out his demeanor... I wish I had said "Why are you talking to me like that?" but in my nervousness and perhaps a bit od disdain.. I retorted a rather improptu thing... "You sure are uppity". Oops.

It is hard to tell an officer how you feel... you know, like that he is a respectable person with much responsibility. You want to say: "Hey, I think you do a great thing for society. I teach my children that they can trust you and that you are a hero. I tell them to respect and obey you. Respect, Mr. officer, begets respect -and if only you hadn't spoken to me so pompously even after I had done everything to redeem myself and make things right... I would still feel that you deserve my respect. If you had only taken the time to remember that we are all just people trying to make our way through our day and that everybody makes mistakes- that's why you have a job. Some days I am sure you see a lot of nasty things... some days I am sure are disheartening. Today you have a soccer mom who just made a little driving mistake... a goofy woman driver with foggy thinking and PMS. In my life I have had 2 tickets... I have never been to jail, I have NEVER done a single illegal drug, and I have never driven without insurance on my car... I am not a bad person and I feel hurt and angry that you treated me so awfully." Instead, I tried to just be quiet and let the scene play out...I felt I needed to say something to bring your attitude to your attention... regardless of my admission of guilt and the vindication of the proof I DID have insurance, I feel that you went out of your way to be ugly and hateful and that you somehow believe you had every right to do so. Perhaps I said the wrong thing. Perhaps on another day we might have gotten through just fine...

Insurance claim filed... the girls car will be fixed. I am sorry I bent her fender and that I hadn't put my new insurance card in my purse yet like a responsible driver. I will pay the ticket for the bad turn and take my insurance card to the judge so that, even though you already confirmed it, I can prove to him, I did- and do have insurance. I am more sorry about the feelings I have about the police officers whom I used to feel so much peace and respect towards being tarnished. I am sorry that I will have to be more careful to teach my boys that you must be wary because even people who are supposed to be good and helpful can be angry and disgruntled. They can treat you badly and even be unfair... I am sorry I was of the bad luck to be introduced to you at all and I surely hope I never have the experience again. Surely Denton has other officers more befitting the honor of wearing a badge- I will pray if I ever need one- it will be one of those fellows and not you.

In other news... I finally found a news article that supports my feelings about the Polygamist issue and thought I would share it with you. I fear that the truth will be buried, the public misinformed, and the whole issue not truly understood until years later when it will come out that the whole thing was horribly handled and the peoples lives destroyed due to government ire and religious prejudice. The handwriting is on the wall and I saw Dr. Phil put his name on it on national TV too! For Shame!